im curious. (0)

hi,blog :)

im bored :(

teman eh? :)

hmm. idk how to start but never mind. i wanna tell you bout my feelings, blog. idk whether im being too sensitive or shes really changed. she always told me that she x sempat reply my texts lately. but, she the one who scolded me because of the same reason. ' u dont have 2-3mins to tell me what r u doing or where are u? im worried tau. jangan buat lagi. lain kali bagitau bby dulu ' now, she did the same thing. not once but everyday lately ni :( and she didnt tell me that she went out for breakfast with her friend. at least she told me her plan. but, i didnt get anything since morning, her subuh time. after 3 hours off waiting, i called her. i asked her where is she and she told me that she was outside having breakfast with her friend. i asked her why u didnt text me and she said ' oh! text! ok ok ' its like a SUPER WEIRD thing to her when i say text. i dont get it. surprisingly, she went out with him without telling me and didnt text me even she was with him pun. i was like wtf la kan. even morning msg pun x dapat, pastu tiba tiba tau dier dah balik semua and baru dier ckp ape dier buat. nak ckp xde crdt mmg ade lah kan. but ntah. she seems like so happy with him and forget everything bout me. i know his gf not there and your bf also not there. but, jgn la bila hangout you guys looks like a couple. he also tell you about his gf and all. i dont mind la kan. u guys are friends. so what? but, jgn la x nampak i langsung when u guys hangout together. to you, maybe i x ckp pape. but, this is how i feel.

nak main basket jap..

bye blog :)

Labels: bored, nabilah :), sad

i miss you ppl! (0)

hey :)
im here again..

im still here. at home. seriously i have pathetic life here. shit! i need to be far away from abah n mak so i can be independent. being here is a good thing for me because i can be with my family. but, with no transport, no pocket money, far away from all my friends, no internet. how can i live like this? all i can do are eat, sleep and wathing tv. im FUCKING BORED ok? luckily few days ago when i logged in to my myspace account, my classmate from my elementary school leave me a msg and add me. she told me that she is my classmate, a daughter to my father's colleague and my neighbour. i tried to remember who is she, but i cant since we are not close. suddenly, i was thinking of my long lost best friend, fahim. i wonder where is he now. i cant find him either in fb or ms. -.-' then, i remembered a name. amalina ahmadudin. i searched for her name at fb. then, i found it. yeay. and you really suprised me. idk that u r wearing tudung now. thats good. i cant contact you guys since i moved to kedah. suddenly i burst into tears when i remember all memories that we shared at kuantan. megat, amalina and musfirah. you guys are my partner in crime. lol. :) fahim and syakir are genius that i always want to beat. all of us work and play hard during our cram session for PTS. haha. i still remember we even race to finish a book of exercise that teacher gave us. i used to boss ppl around back then with amalina. pretend that we do our job when tchr were around. lari2 semua. it was fun weh. hahahaha. thats my only entertainment when im here. T_T i miss some of my highschool friends too. husaini, yusuf, hazazi, jusco, namco. i never meet jusco and namco since i moved out from sdar. ppl do contact me asap ok? (bajet ade org tau je blog ni. lol) and obviously i miss you too, nabilah :(

malas dah,bye :) Labels: bored, childhood memories, craps, nabilah :), sad

here i am. (1)

hey pal :)
im here again to tell u my endless story..
i hope u'll listen :)

im home now :( after 4 days, now only i have the chance to online at a cc nearby. i hate to be here since i have no transport and being far away from everything especially you :( after 4 days at home, abah talked to me just now. abah asked me what's my plan and everything. i told him everything and he is still thinking and kinda agree with my plan. i hope so :) but, mak keep telling me that she wants me to study here ;( luckily abah asked me if im not continuing taylors where i wanna go to pursue my dreams. but, abah quickly asked for my opinion on uniKL, unisel and etc. they are still at kl even not taylors :) and LICENSE please, abah :) im kinda like stranded at an island now. give me a transport please :( to you, i kinda terfikir bout what happened on your birthday that you told me that night. i cried. sorry ;(

i miss you, NABILAH ;(

till then.. Labels: empty, family, future, ily, imy, nabilah :), sad

7 months :) (2)

10th jan 2010;

we're celebrating our 7 months together today :)

i cant wait to see you,baby ;)

7 months and still counting :))

happy 7 months,baby!

i love you so much,nabilah :)

this is our very first date :)

i miss you,baby :)

Labels: anny, ily, imy, nabilah :), thanks :)

i cant sleep again. (0)

hey,man..
we meet again..

i cant sleep again.. idk why.. after lepak semalam sampai sekarang pun x tido lagi =.=' the only thing i can do is playing poker at fb ;)
lets play texas holdem poker for the whole day..lol

bye,blog.. Labels: bored, craps, empty, sad

IM alwAys cLOSER TO YOU (2)

hey,blog..
how are u,man..??
great isnt it..??
me too,bro :)

im pretty sad actually.. i had a HUGE fight with my gf last night.. she still dont give up on persuading me to continue my studies.. she did a good thing and i agree to continue my studies.. she asked me to go back to abah's ASAP since i told her that abah forced me to go back ASAP.. but, i insist because i want to spend time with her first.. i told her that if im going back early, im still not continuing my studies this 11th and abah wont discuss about this thing immediately.. it takes time since we are RARELY talk.. he will talk to me when i caused troubles.. but, NABILAH has a positive mind and she said that people can change and it starts from you.. you here is me lah of course.. suddenly, out of nowhere i attacked her like hell and then i realised that i have crossed the line.. then, she give up and hang up the call.. she was crying.. she still dont want to talk to me until now ;( i fell guilty.. i mean it, NABILAH.. im so sorry ;( i didnt mean to hurt u ;( this is the second time people who are really close to me dont want to talk to me.. 1st one was my best friend few years ago.. please forgive me, NABILAH ;(

btw,the title has 2 ways to read it.. 1 of them with CAPS..

till then,blog.. Labels: ily, nabilah :), sad, sorry :(

im in dilemma. (0)

dear,blog :)

listen to my story now..

the first week of this year has past.. during that week, i've been through a lot of shit.. i was thinking bout every single thing that happened and about to happen in my life.. im in dilemma whether i want to work or continue my studies.. but, the most important thing for me now is MONEY.. yes, MONEY.. i want to have my own money.. i dont want to depend on my parents anymore.. i've get in so many trouble last year and wasted a lot of their money for nothing.. NOTHING, ok..?? at the end of the day, i started regretting about every single thing that involved money last year although i never regret about everything that i did in the past.. but,last year is totally different thing to me.. i wasted a year and 60k+.. although im the only child, but its too much.. this is why i want to have my own money.. so,i decided to work and stop my studies for a while.. i mean a year.. then, i went to S and applied a job there.. but, they asked me to wait for their call..until now, i didnt receive any call from them.. then, i find another alternative to earn money.. i search for some online jobs on the internet.. i've try a few of them,but sadly, all of them were scam..not ALL.. but, SOME of them.. meanwhile, my gf was convincing me to continue my studies.. she made think twice.. but, i still want to work.. but idk where to start.. she was worried about me because im here in subang alone doing nothing.. then, she start persuading me again to continue my studies.. this time, i really think twice and yes, i want to continue my studies.. but, first i need to master my math skills back because i think im stupid than 5th grader.. *sigh* thanks to NABILAH, u helped me a lot, baby :) now, the problem is abah wants me to go home first.. he wants to discuss about my decision of continuing my studies..when it comes to abah, he likes to make his own decision and its more difficult than it should be..but, of course he always follow my decision.. abah abah.. i love u jugak macam mana pun.. u are still my abah.. n mak pun.. thanks for always be by my side in every decision that i've made.. i love u too :) but, i cant start my 3rd sem on 11th january because abah wants me to go home.. sorry, NABILAH ;( sorry abah, mamat x angkat call abah one day semalam..im stressed ;( abah start his bonding with jaja back last night..lagi la kena paksa balik dengan jaja.. *sigh* nevermind.. i'll go back around 11th la paling awal pun.. i want to spend time with her dulu on 10th ;) if abah still force me to go back, then i'll go home lah.. master my math skills kat sana dulu, DRIVING LICENSE please abah, then im here back in subang lah.. ok, thats the plan.. hopefully jadi :)

to NABILAH.. im sorry for everything that happened last night.. i was so stressed yesterday.. sorry for being a jerk.. i didnt mean to hurt u ;( please forgive me ;( thanks NABILAH YAZID for always be by my side thru thick and thin.. i really appreciate everything that you help, give, advice me.. i love you so much, NABILAH :)

see ya around,blog..

Labels: family, future, ily, nabilah :), sorry :(, thanks :)

idk. (0)

hey,blog..im your owner..nice to meet you..idk where i get the idea to blog..but it seems fun to me..everything is new to me..maybe i need a friend who can listen to everything that i wanna talk about..thats y i created u..lol..im bored..

till then..bye bye,blog..

Labels: craps