im in dilemma.

dear,blog :)
listen to my story now..

the first week of this year has past.. during that week, i've been through a lot of shit.. i was thinking bout every single thing that happened and about to happen in my life.. im in dilemma whether i want to work or continue my studies.. but, the most important thing for me now is MONEY.. yes, MONEY.. i want to have my own money.. i dont want to depend on my parents anymore.. i've get in so many trouble last year and wasted a lot of their money for nothing.. NOTHING, ok..?? at the end of the day, i started regretting about every single thing that involved money last year although i never regret about everything that i did in the past.. but,last year is totally different thing to me.. i wasted a year and 60k+.. although im the only child, but its too much.. this is why i want to have my own money.. so,i decided to work and stop my studies for a while.. i mean a year.. then, i went to S and applied a job there.. but, they asked me to wait for their call..until now, i didnt receive any call from them.. then, i find another alternative to earn money.. i search for some online jobs on the internet.. i've try a few of them,but sadly, all of them were scam..not ALL.. but, SOME of them.. meanwhile, my gf was convincing me to continue my studies.. she made think twice.. but, i still want to work.. but idk where to start.. she was worried about me because im here in subang alone doing nothing.. then, she start persuading me again to continue my studies.. this time, i really think twice and yes, i want to continue my studies.. but, first i need to master my math skills back because i think im stupid than 5th grader.. *sigh* thanks to NABILAH, u helped me a lot, baby :) now, the problem is abah wants me to go home first.. he wants to discuss about my decision of continuing my studies..when it comes to abah, he likes to make his own decision and its more difficult than it should be..but, of course he always follow my decision.. abah abah.. i love u jugak macam mana pun.. u are still my abah.. n mak pun.. thanks for always be by my side in every decision that i've made.. i love u too :) but, i cant start my 3rd sem on 11th january because abah wants me to go home.. sorry, NABILAH ;( sorry abah, mamat x angkat call abah one day semalam..im stressed ;( abah start his bonding with jaja back last night..lagi la kena paksa balik dengan jaja.. *sigh* nevermind.. i'll go back around 11th la paling awal pun.. i want to spend time with her dulu on 10th ;) if abah still force me to go back, then i'll go home lah.. master my math skills kat sana dulu, DRIVING LICENSE please abah, then im here back in subang lah.. ok, thats the plan.. hopefully jadi :)
to NABILAH.. im sorry for everything that happened last night.. i was so stressed yesterday.. sorry for being a jerk.. i didnt mean to hurt u ;( please forgive me ;( thanks NABILAH YAZID for always be by my side thru thick and thin.. i really appreciate everything that you help, give, advice me.. i love you so much, NABILAH :)

see ya around,blog..

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